NUMBERS
HER NIGHTS ARE SHIVERS
OF POLLUTED METALS
AND COMPLICATED NUMBERS
TWISTED IN SHAPES
TO BE READ
IN YEARS TO COME
AS A LUCID BOILING ANGER,
THAT CHOSE THE SHAPE
OF A DISOBEDIENT GUT.
BLOOD MADE APPEARANCES
AS A REMINDER
SHE HAD GROWN AWAY
THE FEELING
OF BEING MISTAKEN
WITH THE UNDEAD.
STILL
SHE GREW AWARE
OF HER BODY
BEING STOLEN FROM HER
IN UNEXPECTED WAYS,
THROUGH THE HEAVY
BACK AND FORTH NECESSARY
TO CLUSTER DESIRE
AROUND ROTTING TROPES
OF GREEDY INSTANTS
OF OWNERSHIP,
AND BUZZING FANTASIES
OF BODIES DISPOSSESSED.
SHE TOOK TIME
WITH BOTH OF HER HANDS,
AND STARED AT IT.
BEFORE IT WAS GONE,
SHADOWS OF PEOPLE
REFLECTED ON THE FLOOR
AS SYMPTOM OF THEIR BODIES,
AND A THOUGHT
SURPRISED HER:
THERE’S A PLACE IN EACH.
A SIP OF COFFEE SLIDS PAST HER THROAT OESOPHAGUS STOMACH START TO BE INTO TRANSITORY TENSION MOVING THROUGH DIFFERENT CAVITIES NOW OPEN AND NOW CLOSE ENOUGH TO EACH OTHER TO BRING FORWARD THE SENSATION OF UNITY BETWEEN PARTS PERCEIVED A SECOND AGO AS DETACHED AND SUBJECT TO HIERARCHIES NOW EXTERNALISED NOW INTERIORISED AS MONETISATION OR HOW MOVEMENT ACROSS AND THROUGH IS CONSIDERED IN TERMS OF VALUE THAT HAS BEEN CREATED BUT MOSTLY EXPLOITED TO DEFINE INTERACTIONS AS EXCHANGES AND AGREEMENTS BETWEEN PARTS SELF-DEFINING THEMSELVES AS ONE HALF OF COMPLEMENTARY DUALITIES OF WIN-WIN WIN-LOSE LOSE-LOSE, THE MARKET BECAME ALIVE AT NIGHT, IT DREAMED VARIATIONS OF ITSELF AS EMBODIED VERSIONS OF FLUCTUATING NOTHINGS DIVING AND EMERGING FROM A MURKY SUBSTANCE WITH NO TASTE TO BE LICKED IN A RUSH OF OBSTINATION TO TRY TO KNOW WHY SOME BLOOD TASTES LIKE METAL LEAKS DIRECTLY FROM THE PORES OF ANY MACHINE WITH A SURFACE THIN ENOUGH TO BE PIERCED BY ACCIDENT WHILE AT WORK IS A RISK THAT HAS BEEN REDUCED BY EJECTING ANY TRANSPIRATION SYSTEM THAT FUNCTIONS ON CALORIES OUT THE WINDOW YOU COULD SEE THE CITY AND IT’S VERY PRECISE SYSTEM OF WASTE TREATMENT CONSISTING IN RIPPING APPART STUFF AT A MOLECULAR LEVEL MAKING YOU FORGET A CHAIR A MATTRESS A PAN EVER EXISTED IN THE FIRST PLACE WHAT IS IMPORTANT ARE THE DAYS TO COME NOT THE DAYS THAT WHERE BEING DRAINED AWAY A VOLUPTUOUS CHARGE OF FEELINGS DEMATERIALISED HERE AND THEN THERE
SHE CHANGED BED SIDES
WITHOUT WAKING UP,
HER BODY REGULATED
TEMPERATURE.
SHE DREAMT OF THE SEVERE
OCCURRENCE OF
BLUNT STATEMENTS
STARTING AND FINISHING
WITH “CAN’T” AND “WON’T”.
BY MIMICKING A DANGER
TO OTHERS
SHE SOMETIMES FELT SAFE,
AS IN THE CENTER
OF A CIRCLE
OF MADE UP
AGGRESSIVENESS